Tuesday, July 15, 2014

A Heart Check

by Gayle Thornberry



Isaiah 1:1-17            “Like a Booth, Shelter, Besieged City”

The vision that Isaiah son of Amoz saw regarding Judah and Jerusalem during the times of the          kings of Judah: Uzziah, Jotham, Ahaz, and Hezekiah.  2-4 Heaven and earth, you’re the jury.          Listen to God’s case: “I had children and raised them well, and hey turned on me.  The ox knows     who’s boss, the mule knows the hand that feeds him, But not Israel.  My people don’t know up         from down.  Shame! Misguided God-dropouts, staggering under their guilt-baggage, Gang of   miscreants, band of vandals—My people have walked out on me, their God, turned their backs          on The Holy of Israel, walked off and never looked back.  5-9 “Why bother even trying to do   anything with you when you just keep to your bullheaded ways?  You keep beating your heads against brick walls.  Everything within you protests against you.  From the bottom of your feet to the top of your head, nothing’s working right.  Wounds and bruises and running sores—untended, unwashed, unbandaged.  Your country is laid waste, your cities burned down.  Your land is destroyed by outsiders while you watch, reduced to rubble by barbarians.  Daughter Zion is deserted—like a tumbledown shack on a dead-end street, Like a tarpaper shanty on the wrong side of the tracks, like a sinking ship abandoned by the rats.  If God-of-the-Angel-Armies hadn’t left us a few survivors, we’d be as desolate as Sodom, doomed just like Gomorrah.  10 “Listen to my Message, you Sodom-schooled leaders.  Receive God’s revelation, you Gomorrah-schooled people.  11-12 “Why this frenzy of sacrifices?”  God’s asking.  “Don’t you think I’ve had my fill of burnt sacrifices, rams and plump grain-fed calves?  Don’t you think I’ve had my fill of blood from bulls, lambs, and goats?  When you come before me, whoever gave you the idea of acting like this, Running here and there, doing this and that—all this sheer commotion in the place provided for worship?  13-17 “Quit your worship charades. I can’t stand your trivial religious games: Monthly conferences, weekly Sabbaths, special meetings—meetings, meetings, meetings—I can’t stand one more!  Meetings for this, meetings for that. I hate them!  You’ve worn me out!  I’m sick of your religion, religion, religion, while you go right on sinning.  When you put on your next prayer-performance, I’ll be looking the other way.  No matter how long or loud or often you pray, I’ll not be listening. And do you know why? Because you’ve been tearing people to pieces, and your hands are bloody.  Go home and wash up.  Clean up your act.  Sweep your lives clean of         your evildoings so I don’t have to look at them any longer. Say no to wrong.  Learn to do good.        Work for justice.  Help the down-and-out.  Stand up for the homeless.  Go to bat for the defenseless.(The Message Translation)

This morning I began a study of the book of Isaiah.  I decided I would read through one chapter a day with two questions in mind:

     1. What was God saying to the original hearers?
     2. What is God saying to me?

The first hearers of this text knew their own current reality, and yet, they didn’t!  They knew that all around them were peoples who wanted to conquer them.  They knew they were in the center of power-mongers who cared more about making a name for themselves than they did for those dwelling in the land they wanted to conquer.  They knew there was someone bigger than their own current fears and realities, God -- yet they practiced a form of worship that was ritual and not righteous.  They continued bringing their sacrifices, burnt offerings and burning of incense to God – but it was all rote, there was no heart in it, and no proof of signs of compassion, mercy and grace towards others.  They were self-focused, self-centered and their worship was no more than just checking off their list of necessary things to do, because this is who we are.  This was NOT what God wanted.   The God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob; the Creator of Adam and Eve; the Sustainer of Ruth and Naomi was a God of relationship and covenant, not ritual and acts of worship that deny the power thereof.
While they knew their current reality, they were not in relationship with God.  Oh, they had been at one time, but the heartaches of life, the pressures of politics both within the church and the state, the pressure for cultivating their own provision slowly eroded their faith, their trust in God, and their worship life.  There had likely been an ever increasing intrusion of negativity invading and permeating their thoughts and heart, all the while maintaining worship practices devoid of the real presence of God, and they weren’t even aware of it!

Isaiah’s call is one of sounding the alarm to wake up and realize their true condition before God.  It’s as if God wanted to snap His children out of the haze of doing and into a state of being.  Meaning, they seemed to be doing the right things, something they somehow equated with righteousness, but they weren’t “being” who God called them to be.  They weren’t making a difference, they weren’t being a blessing to the world around them and they certainly weren’t doing good, seeking justice, rescuing the orphans, or pleading for the widow.  The orphan and widows represent persons on the margins, the least, the last and the lost…those who couldn’t help themselves.  They didn’t because their lives had become all about themselves; a self-absorbed, in denial, and unproductive people.

I’m afraid when I examine my own heart, this is exactly where I have been walking.  My life is a life honestly, of doing and not being.  I’m busy serving a church, taking care of as many needs as I can, creating worship experiences, bible studies and offering myself as a sacrifice … and believe me, I feel sacrificed!  I feel empty, burned up and burned out!  How did I come to this place?  The same way these first hearers did, I allowed the enemy to warp my mind and my thinking by invading and overwhelming me with all the things that I must do to cultivate provision for the church, for her people, and for myself.  In that doing, I lost sight of being.  I found myself in the bible every day in order to produce, but not in order to worship my God.  Not in order to meet God in fellowship, insight, and the growth of my relationship with the lover of my soul.  And soon enough the proof of my reality came spilling out of my mouth in words that sound more faith-less than faithful.  The waters that run deep became stagnant pools of polluted thinking.  This “stinkin’ thinkin’” does NOT please God and actually hinders the work of God on our behalf.  I had moved out of covenant with God and like the first hears, I didn’t even know it!

But, my precious Father is unrelenting in His relationship with me.  God actually pursues us and woos us back into relationship – that is God’s heart toward His children.  However, make no mistake God will not tolerate our lackadaisical attempts we call worship apart from real relationship, evidenced by shifting the focus off of self and onto what He calls us to do.  We live in a society that is “self” driven.  We snap, snap, snap pictures of ourselves, post them to the internet for the world to join us in our self-worship!    We live lives that are centered around producing our every comfort, (in multiples mind you), cultivating our own provision while at the same time forgetting who our provider really is.  But, worse yet we attend church (if it’s convenient) and call it worship!

Thank you Almighty, most Holy, Heavenly Father for today’s revelation and reality check.  Forgive me for sinning against You!  Forgive me for walking out of covenant, while I was so busy doing what I called “Your work.”  Forgive me for my stinking thinking!  Thank you for loving me, pursuing me, and calling me back into honest, righteous relationship!